Day two of three of the Landmark Forum, and I tell you, I am feeling lighter, freer, and appreciative of my life.
One of Landmark's New realm philosophy is 'the constraints of the past imposes on your view of your life disappears, a new view of life emerges.'
I always thought myself to be adaptable and progressive. What I learned about myself today was that regardless of how much I consider myself to be the above, I didn't wholly appreciate either qualities to the fullest extent. Why, you ask? Well, I always knew I had childhood issues (just like any other child really) that impeded my ability to comprehend and appreciate any and all possibilities to the fullest extent. While I would have an agreement with myself to move forward, adapt and develop, the end result would be discontent with my situation (regardless of how wonderful or different). These are realizations I have come to on my own. I also realized the importance of me restoring my relationship with my mom, sister, brother, stepfather and biological father (the biggest wound of all!!)
I made explorative phone calls to my sibs, my mother and am on the hunt to have a breakthrough with a man whom I haven't had contact with for over 25 years!
In addition, I am making promises of consequence to myself, and restructuring my value system.
SO... that was what I explored about myself but let me tell you about the forum itself.
The speaker and assisting team are emotionally removed from the whole process. They are not compassionate to my 'story' (my interpretation of what happened). If they showed any level of empathy, compassion or sympathy to my story, they will be enabling my story, validating my story and in turn reducing my chances to create change in my life or not helping me understand the difference between what happened and the story. If I think back to myself as a child, that is how I processed anything anyone would say to me. Without being inflicted by anyone's story, my response would be honest and to the point. This is how they operate. It is a BLUNT, TO THE POINT AND HONEST method of speaking. Something I do still (the child in me has yet to leave), but will now employ even more vigourously on a personal level.
I am beginning to understand the importance of sharing my experience and encouraging those I share with to join in my experience. Not only is it an opportunity to heal themselves, but it is also creating a support system. A support system that will understand me based on the language I have learned from the Forum, and they will be able to communicate with me in the same manner. Simultaneously, we (my support system and I) will be invested and will continue to relish and reel in the personal growth for the betterment of each other.
All of the above are my interpretations and realizations from today's exercise. To fully understand my conclusions, I haven't much to say except, experience it for yourself as that will speak volumes. (Something to review: Breakthrough Technology)
I have shed my fears, past stories, now I am truly free and open to new possibilities.
Excited for Day 3!
~s
- - Quote of the night:
Another flaw in the human character is that everyone wants to build and nobody wants to do maintenance.
- - Kurt Vonnegut
One of Landmark's New realm philosophy is 'the constraints of the past imposes on your view of your life disappears, a new view of life emerges.'
I always thought myself to be adaptable and progressive. What I learned about myself today was that regardless of how much I consider myself to be the above, I didn't wholly appreciate either qualities to the fullest extent. Why, you ask? Well, I always knew I had childhood issues (just like any other child really) that impeded my ability to comprehend and appreciate any and all possibilities to the fullest extent. While I would have an agreement with myself to move forward, adapt and develop, the end result would be discontent with my situation (regardless of how wonderful or different). These are realizations I have come to on my own. I also realized the importance of me restoring my relationship with my mom, sister, brother, stepfather and biological father (the biggest wound of all!!)
I made explorative phone calls to my sibs, my mother and am on the hunt to have a breakthrough with a man whom I haven't had contact with for over 25 years!
In addition, I am making promises of consequence to myself, and restructuring my value system.
SO... that was what I explored about myself but let me tell you about the forum itself.
The speaker and assisting team are emotionally removed from the whole process. They are not compassionate to my 'story' (my interpretation of what happened). If they showed any level of empathy, compassion or sympathy to my story, they will be enabling my story, validating my story and in turn reducing my chances to create change in my life or not helping me understand the difference between what happened and the story. If I think back to myself as a child, that is how I processed anything anyone would say to me. Without being inflicted by anyone's story, my response would be honest and to the point. This is how they operate. It is a BLUNT, TO THE POINT AND HONEST method of speaking. Something I do still (the child in me has yet to leave), but will now employ even more vigourously on a personal level.
I am beginning to understand the importance of sharing my experience and encouraging those I share with to join in my experience. Not only is it an opportunity to heal themselves, but it is also creating a support system. A support system that will understand me based on the language I have learned from the Forum, and they will be able to communicate with me in the same manner. Simultaneously, we (my support system and I) will be invested and will continue to relish and reel in the personal growth for the betterment of each other.
All of the above are my interpretations and realizations from today's exercise. To fully understand my conclusions, I haven't much to say except, experience it for yourself as that will speak volumes. (Something to review: Breakthrough Technology)
I have shed my fears, past stories, now I am truly free and open to new possibilities.
Excited for Day 3!
~s
- - Quote of the night:
Another flaw in the human character is that everyone wants to build and nobody wants to do maintenance.
- - Kurt Vonnegut
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